Been quite a while since I last blog .... i do miss blogging as it is the only way I know how to say what I want to say and its very different from saying to another friend personally. The reaction from the other party is predictable so we cant say anything we want even though we are close friends, right? Not every bff shares same opinions and ideas. Deep down we are emotional and dependable on someone for some consoling words, some warm touch, some affections, someone to lend a shoulder for us to cry on.. bottom line is I need someone to understand me. Someone to understand what I am saying. Do I need to say it so many times to get the message across? Geezzzz....... its so tiring.
How about an unselfish platonic friend (without any mood swings like happening on daily basis please)? or How about a friend who always delivers what has been promised? . .. what has become of the world now? There are no sincerity nowadays. When someone says sweet nothings to me I just look at the person with a huge "?" above my head like .. "eu, do you know what you are saying?" even though those words could make me feel special. But for how long does it ever lasts? For that moment only. Next you find yourself facing the person who whispers sweet nothings to you with a new sight . Its like its all in your head, it never happen. After few weeks of calming down, then Boom...... again, history repeating itself. And Poof...... strangers again. It may be fun for some but it sure could drain my energies trying to figure a person out. Of course, its not worth my time, total waste of my time. Then why cant my head rule my heart? something like artery blockage??
When ever we watch movies, the advise given was ALWAYS "listen to your heart". I have never seen a movie where the actor says "listen to your Head"... All these movie producers need to get themselves updated with the latest trend. There are few around that is sincere in their Heart. Look at the number of scandals and cheating hearts. It is more common to see females cheat. In my school days, the children are "managed" by moms and dads are the bread winner. Seldom I see dads sending or fetching their kids from schools. Mostly moms. When children are sick, they call out for "mom". In today's world, you see dad waking up early to send kids to school because moms need time to get ready for work....... (well, thats what guys tell me) ;)
Are there any more sincere people out there? How do we know if they are?
I think my article today is like "rojak" ( a kind of dish available here in Malaysia. it has cut pineapple, cucumbers.. etc all add in and mix with a dark brown/black sweeten paste) because my heart is trying to rule my head.. hmmmmmm..................
